Thursday, June 29, 2006
和从每天都没厌倦过？
想了想
我已厌倦这种生活
厌倦了自己
厌倦一切的一切
厌倦到我没力气
没勇气
的去想想
一切所有
的厌倦
现在的我
厌倦到疲惫
疲惫到
我无法去想其他事情
疲惫到
我已厌倦去
懂得什么是爱或恨
疲惫到
以无心无力地
去弥补
我心中以被撕开的缺口
让它缓慢地流失
的东西
厌倦了疲惫
也渐渐地遗忘
痛是什么
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 10:14 PM
heh finally I posting 1 post in english nw. Becoz I juz wanted to thanks Nicole, Edmund and huiyin accompanied me go town shopping. Today shopping was greatz, everybody gt buy something, in the end I bought 2 shorts and another long sleeves shirt I metioned in my previous post. The shirt actually was selling $69.90 and thanks alot to my dear Nicole who help me ask for further discount and the guy who served us also help me ask the boss for further discount for me =) Then the lady boss walked towards us and said that If u want I can give u $60+ which is abit below 69.90? But then I no ans her instead I was thinking was it still worth that.... again she asked me wad was my budget? Then I say maybe $50++ ? She immediately gave me $59.90 then I agreed lor coz is like $10 below the selling price. Yeah very happy I gt this shirt but also buy le I not enough to buy my shorts....
Cont our shopping, I must thanks edmund for paying my bills with his card, without him I cant buy anymore things but still I need to pay him back tmr. For me I dun like to owe other pple money, if can make it asap to return the person if I meeting him.
Juz wanna say thanks alot with my frens help.
Also 1 only thing which spoilt my day becoz I lost my 1 and only left 256mb thumbdrive. I put it in one of my bag's pocket which I also stuffed my hp inside. So the only possible way I lost it was while I was taking out my hp, my TD also accidentally dropped out lor. Bo bian lor lost it, cry also no use, since I have lost my IPOD already (T-T) Again my pain was for my work inside. At 1st ytd wanted to back up but then lazy so this is wad I get.... haiz. My 3D modelling work inside was the most impt one....!!
Already very sad and pek chek, the moment I reached hm my mother asked me y early in the morning borrowed $50 from her for wad? I dun wan answered her and I left to my grandmother's hse to eat leftover dinner... came hm again she asked then I said nth but brought out wad I bought. Instead my father kpkb to me abt spending on clothings also he found out I lost my TD when I was asking my sister if she saw it. Again he kpkb to me, losing expensive elcetronics stuff again.
Very long le, everyday tok to them not even 10 sentences. Unless they want me help them abt hsework only. Else, I juz stayed in my rm and face my comp and they stayed at their rm watched TV or newspaper and there goes a day.... a cycle everyday.
Haiz dunno wad to do. worried abt my work only nw.
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 9:36 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
忽然听见了A*mei 的 “勇敢”
喜欢那一句
是我勇敢太久
因为这世界是那么的危险
那么得没有安全感
所以我们要勇敢
要坚强
而不能在别人面前显得脆弱
曾听过那么一句话
坚强也需要休息
在我面前
就让软弱回到你身旁
回到单纯的你
太多事情都要我们勇敢面对
勇敢是
辛苦
费力
和寂寞的
但我们却无法选择
我也已经勇敢了太久
一个人承担
很累
很寂寞
希望能让软弱陪我休息
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 9:41 PM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
爱是什么
为什么它那么
难以触摸
难以明白
难以了解
爱在字典里
只说明
爱是对某种生物有感情
却还是无法定义
每个人都在寻找它
每个人都需要它
难道没了它
就世界末日
到现在谁能知道
爱需要的是什么
而我们为什么为爱痴狂
知道爱能给得多
也能伤得更多
但我们却还不断的寻找
我们所为的“爱”
只希望爱不要伤到我
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 10:22 PM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
SHONE 是安鈞璨的英文名
很多人对这个名字充满了疑惑
SHONE
是
SHINE
的过去式
记得在年少轻狂的時候
我以为自己很阳光
所以
我把自己的阳光狠狠的锁住在最深处
让它永远的留在我的身边
就这样我和他有点相似
因为经历了许多事情
从一個小孩慢慢地長大
急着想摆脱
年少轻狂
天真无知
用一种不削陽光的態度
來面对这个世界
所以我決定把我的陽光锁住
我決定一直这样下去
这样的改变
我喜欢吗?
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 11:08 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Nice weather today.... not so hot not so cold.... juz the right weather. We carried out our plan!! haha finally nicole, edmund and me go Heeren's Sakae eat student buffet!! I love sushi!! with wasabi!! Hmmm... so we ate abt 40+ of plates and edmund and nicole keep eat the fried tofu... they say piping hot tofu is nice, crispy outside, soft inside LOL.
Actually 3 pple happily shopping was great! Quite fast when we walked at the street haha. 1st out target was the adidas shop coz I want see gt wad kind of jacket again. Eh I saw the white and green 1 which is the type I want behind blank, gt collar and a logo infront de. But the prob is white coz keep long will be barley yellowish.... I still like the one mainly red or blue with white stripes de.... old version but nicer.
Anyway we juz walk walk see see look look at Heeren. Suddenly we walked past 1 shop saw a long sleeve shirt, black thin stripes with main background white but filled with light gradient from top to bottom, blue to purple, very nice!! So edmund immediately went in and asked to try when i was telling nicole that shirt very nice leh.... So let him be but in the end he no buy.... coz is cost $69.90..... the person say actually 90! wth!! thot edmund gt asked b4 he tried?
Continue to shop shop but found nth in Heeren so decided to go another adidas shop to look coz nicole also very high abt soccer jerseys....
When we shop at a Nike shop while edmund was drinking his coke outside the shop, I bought a weight-handles skipping rope for $28. LoL wanted to skip few days b4 at hm but found no rope... hmmm maybe next time also gt dumbell?? haha lazy person like me use this type of exercise method lor =)
Aft that we went Fareast to shop again, starting from the top lvl, we shopped then suddenly saw Rosanne, Ley yee and Lorinna where Ros said hi to me 1st and I blur blur dunno who coz ate very full and felt like slping also haha aft that jiu bye le. In the end edmund bought a long pants while I bought a lime green, black stripes shirt at Leftfoot. Actually price was $27.50 bah then nicole said that can cheaper coz alot of shops gt 10% discount becoz of GSS then the saleperson said "ya lor, hate this lor." (in a gentle tone) but in the end she juz lower the price to $25 haha. (All thx to dear nicole's help)
End of shopping journey so we met jiawen and willie at Fareast also then wanted to go back Heeren buy nicole's dunno which clothes and my stripes shirt at Check. But in the end they went to jiawen's hse to prepare to watch tonight world cup with jy, yinru and mel. Eh sry I didn't go although I know I dun watch soccer but I know I can play mahjong mah but then.... haha gt some prob la. Juz enjoy ur soccer bah. Then already planned going out to shop again at Bugis during Sat le!! confirmed haha.... but still wondering nicole will bring me to ice skate.... or my k box ?? haiz founf that I left $50 when I started with $140.... so I thot of how to hav more money when I was travelling in the train alone.....
Let u choose....
One day u found a lamp..... u rubbed it and a genie came out!!!
OMG!!! WTH!!!
who are u?!!
Who cares.... but he gave u 1 wish and u made one....
which is have endless of money.....
in 1 condition.....
At the start of each day, u will hav 10 million
but at the end of the day u must spend all
and not buying the same thing twice if not......
u will lose everything and ur life too.....
wad will u choose??
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 9:43 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
lol. having late slp lately becoz of world cup?? Shouting out loud for "Goal!!" during midnite?? Drinking beer and eating potato chips or even peanuts while watching soccer?? Hmmm.... those soccer fans sure did it for the past few days.... even kopitiam full of pple, even my uncle's medical hall business nwdays quite good. I went to helpout then the herbal tea all sell very fast... some pple kope 4-5 bottles at 1 go also pple buy alot of soft drinks and ciggy..... from 7a.m till 6p.m the income was around 2k-2.5k o.O
For me... nah i don't watched it although i gt watched last time but maybe will watched for the last few match?? Anyway today was a super great start!! Although I was waken by 2 calls in the morning, becoz my aunt want bring us out. In the end, my grandmother also tagged along with us. At 1st was going for Sakura buffet for early lunch.... but then we went to hougang in the end for the Jack's place. lol so early gt a nice lunch leh. All of us ordered steak while my grandmother ordered the grilled salmon. Super tasty steak!! plus the potato with the sour cream and those small minced bacon. Yummy!!
Now I am back home, feeling so full... haha. lol tmr dunno eat wad, heard that my aunt off again for tmr so can pray for nice lunch again??!! haha dun mind waking up early.
Btw last week of holi le. How was everyone doing? Wished that 1 of my wishes for the holi activity can come true.... Nicole said will accompany go ice-skate!! promised hor... u said even left we 2 go also must go haha I dun mind anyway. U know how to skate then can teach me 1 on 1 mah.
Anyway everyone juz enjoy ur holi bah... sch coming back soon...
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 2:00 PM
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
HI everyone! gt enjoyed ur holidays still?? Me today same same also, gt go help my mother early in the morning. Yawning thw whole morning.... haha. Most impt thing is that 1 thing I heard on radio during the ride to the workplace.
The morning radio news reported that global warming have been increasing every nw and then and the ice at the North Pole and Antartica are melting still.... Hmmm this piece of news not suprising right? Cont they said scientists found that the polar bears at these cold places are eating one another!! OMG! Wad is happening is this world. The reason is becoz of the ice melting, polar bears which always find food which is the fishes or so in the ice cubes inside by breaking the ice abit den take out the fish and eat, cant find enough for all polar bears. There are already 3 cases happened, where scientists found a mother polar bear and her quite newly born baby polar bear dead as they are being eaten. As problem have been there but yet how to solve.... global warming cant be stopped immediately as alot of things are contributing to the cause of it. As in ask pple stop using vehicles? ask those smokers stop smoking which harms them and pollute the air + contributing to global warming also, so many disadvantages yet they still did it....? Impossible...... So I can only feel pity for those "white bears" and maybe we humans have this day coming also......
Anyway, I today half steamboat at shop for lunch.... alot pple come and eat haha. Very crowded and fun. Then I off at 4p.m from dere take bus to Hougang Mall for some necesscities shopping alone =) Went to bought a facial foam at body shop and a CD at Sembawang. I bought a new CD by Tanya Chua, listening nw and juz like quite a few of her old album songs.
Btw gonna to be end of the 1st week of term break? make sure everyone faster enjoy wad they wan to do bah. coz still gt some assignments to do yet.... hehe
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 11:54 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
So is this 1st week or 2nd week of term break? I only noe today tue a weekday. Main topic for today was mahjong for the whole aftnoon activity!! Everyday woke up around 10+ or 11+, not a single bit of tiredness was great as u hav the energy to do everything u wanted.
Today mahjong was with my 2 aunts, yizhen and me, winnings was 10cents 20 cents de. We spent whole aftnoon at yizhen's hse coz her parents and her bro went taiwan trip. Hmmm... taiwan nice place to shop and eat.... hehe wish to go again but haven go japan b4. At first, me and yizhen was losing some but in the end of the whole game, she won $9+ while me $4+ haha. Wad can I say? things always goes better in the end? miracle....
Aft dinner, I went hm to bathe then received george's msg to accompany him eat dinner coz his parents went genting and his little bro was at tuition. He ate a plate of fish&chip at Rivervale Mall de foodcourt, the fish was 2 skinny slices.... haha school ones better. Then I ordered a bowl of ice-kacang while he ordered longan ice. Rmb that he said that holi very sian... hmmm quite some pple also likdat said b4. Dunno wad to do, gt sch too stress pple sian, giv them holi also feel sian. For me still ok lor, although camp at hm abit boring but try to find smth to keep u busy bah, if not find pple go out lor. Nvm george I noe u wan new hp, jiayou and work bah u can save for 1 new hp de!!
For tmr I noe I am going to help my mother at shop so hav to wake up at 6.30a.m le. Can earn abit at dere, haha better than nth. kk cya and time for rest le.
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 11:35 PM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Oh yeah today is Sunday.... a weekend yet have to wake up early becoz my mother need me help at shop. This thing was last min where they told me 6.30a.m when I m asleep. A bad start for the day as the 1st thing I did was quarrel with my parents coz they woke me up suddenly and I didnt want to help at the shop. Sian lor so early woke up and ytd slept late.
Aft preparing then my father sent us to my uncle's chinese medical hall at Geylang Bahru. There every Sun was quite crowded as like our shop can rent the space outside our shop to those small stalls selling variety of cheap items. So today outside the shop was selling diff kinds of bags (including coin purse and pencil boxes)and hats. The morning started with pushing of carts, carry goods, placing them and also being cashier, especially morning alot uncles buy ciggy. Here we sell ciggy and all kinds of phone cards cheap coz gt competitions then everyone started lowering their prices.
Aft 1hr + of settling those moving of carts and goods, I sat at the counter, gt pple then serve if dunno ask my mother especially those herbs gt so many kinds then also almost all the same dull colours. Me only noe those common kind de also I noe hw to use the chinese medical hall de weighing thing hor lol.
Rmb gt 1 time I go help, suddenly gt 1 quite small-build and beautiful gal come in, so customer come in will say what the thing they want then I will take for them but this one diff. She came in then started to describe a thing using her hands.... omg she is mute! I faster pass her a pen and paper and she wrote down the words. Haiz wasted sia. Even god creation was not perfect at all. This time gt a woman push a baby trolley came where a gal think age around p6-sec sch? The gal hav illness de as her legs was small skinny and weak but her body size was normal. The gal juz sit in the trolley with no expression. so ke lian. Her mother hav to take care of her and the gal was ill.
Around 2 then I off work and went hm. The rain was heavy whole day, stopping awhile and rain back again. Cold weather yet I didnt slp at hm.... Today my smallest aunt b'dae then gt D24 durian cake bought from Emicakes. The cake was super "durian-ed" dunno hav a few layers of pure durian and the smell was power. All relatives came so hav to play with those small kids. haha.
Btw haven heard of anyone lately? except edmund keep asking me to play with him and nicole ask me when go eat sushi. ahahaha....
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 11:52 PM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Yeah finally.... the day has come, term break lai le, although only 2 weeks and still need to touch on some modules' project during holi though. Everytime aft some great we hav done will be arrangement of programmes nd activities.... For me was going to Creative!!
Eh juz accompanying george and huiyin to go Jurong dere de Creative Care to repair their mp3 rather than go lavender, then go KCC den go eat dinner...haha. Still thinking of go sing.... but KCC.... lol nvm next time KBox better....
So aft tests, those go KCC de 1 grp, go Creative hav jane and huiyin, george and me haha... but then catherine pei us go eat lunch in sch 1st. From tampines to jurong is east to west, so the journey will confirm take 1hr ++ We all take 27 to Sengkang and change 965 to woodlands initially but decided to alight at the Admirality station dere to take train to jurong. During the journey me and george very tired and we slept in the bus while I can heard jane and huiyin talking....
When we arrived at jurong, huiyin lead us the way to Creative Building. At first I thought gt a pavement to walk to but then we need to walk across those muddy grass field with narrow mau path which is below the MRT track. Then so zhun aft raining, the field very wet and I say we are like blangadesh or illigal immigrants walking in this kind of road...suddenly a blackie pop out infront if us... =x The place also gt alot "traps" which is holes so mus very careful. The ending of this grass field was atrocious!!! Due to the gap of a wide drain, wooden planks was placed dere to cross the drain to the pavement. The prob is not the drain but is the wooden planks coz they are 1 leg's width wide and there have 3 planks but only the center one can step on. I did tried on the 1st on which is so "tender", where i step on it will bounce de...
[ltr cross half drop in drain =( ]Especially jane, she very scared then I hav to hold her hands and pull her to safety. lol.
The building was then juz infront of us and we went in the building, straight to the showroom, also where the care centre situated inside. The place inside was hightech bah.... white white de... class class feel.... very spacious. We went straight to the care centre where george and huiyin take queue number and immediately they are they next one coz only 2-3 pple dere... Aft that, the consultants dere say aft half hr can take bak mp3 where george's mp3 need to reformat while huiyin replace new one for $40 or so.
During waiting time, we walk around see see look look, sit at the place where hav movie to see with surround system and big tv screen, see their products which consist of mp3, desktops, mouses, speakers etc. I saw the Zen Visions at dere, touch it and try using it and also saw a paper comparing zen vision with ipod mp4. Highlighting that zen can drag any format of video directly to mp3 while ipod need to convert to its format and zen batt life hav 4 h r video playbak while, ipod mp4 hav 2hr. Instead aft reading that, u see the cover in rounded rectangle shaped, the scroll pad only can scroll up and down and those play, forward buttons are so hard to press it. But then I also found that the speaker which costs $159 was quite worth it leh. The sound quality not bad and the size very mini and nice.
Aft they collected their items, we went out of the showroom then huiyin and jane said the toilet sign which pointing back was actually situated inside another building but they thot is behind it and then they walked 1 round the building lol no wonder juz nw cant find them for some time.
[ funny blur superglues]Again, we had to walk bak on the planks and across the muddy field to the MRT station. This time crossing the planks was ok but then aft that we walk some time, jane behind me and george shouted "ouch!". We turned back saw one of her foot in a hole. haha her foot small ah can fit inside the small hole?Luckily no twist dao ankle or bleeding but then she juz complained she gt blueblack.... no hurt done to her foot.When we reached the MRT station, deciding whether to go boon lay de Jurong Point dere walk walk or go hm. In the end, we went hm, coz huiyin wan pack her room and jane wan go novena gt her salary as she worked at Xcessories during holi. So me and george went home together, take train to woodlands and straight bus back to sengakang.
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 9:55 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006
Juz becoz for today 1st term test, we studied together for half a nite or so....
[although half of it were chatting non-stop] Ytd nitez, my room hav ah ru, mel, huiyin, jiawen, edmund and me! Hmmm six-some in a room!! cant imagine ri8?? so high throught the nite
....["Waiting for tonite" by jennifier lopez. lol] Before they reached my hse, i took out some quilt blanket and place it on my floor so that ltr they could sit on floor and study together. When they arrived, i asked them quietly went into my room as my family members were slping.
For sure so many pple study together would chat de but then we gt study also, asking some probs and helping each other to understand, within our knowledge.... hehe. Around 1 ah ru, mel, edmund and jiawen started their super interetsing conversation where I can say content was interesting as they keep on going for nearly 2hrs or so although in between stop awhile and read notes. For me, i juz lie on my bed and listen to their interesting topics and read my notes while huiyin stucked to my comp when she changed her seat to infront of my comp. She would at 1st play minesweeper then suddenly changed to 02jam then I would help her 1 or 2 songs if the songs were hard to her.
Around 3+ they went out to Cheers and buy smth to drink or eat while i stay at my room and nap awhile which i fell asleep but woke up but their call to open the door for them. Aft that we cont studying and chat to keep us awake but we still lose to time and we decided to slp at 4.30a.m ....
Had to woke up at 9a.m becoz we meeting nicole at sch 10a.m. Instead we 10++ woke up and by the time each of us took turns to bathe, we reached sch at 11.40p.m. We took a 1 and half hr test at 12.30p.m, felt greatz as 1 burden was down. In the end, we went to eat lunch at design sch and then i went home alone while the others go town......
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 10:59 PM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Yeah nice sat!! Today slp until 1p.m due to edmund wanted to play game with me till 4a.m! Hehe my slp duration normally 9hrs++ de... Actuall today's plan was to study, revise for next week term test. Luckily I had only 3 papers only, while jiawen they all hav extra 1 more becoz of 1 thing call STMD....
Around 2-3 likdat huiyin and edmund reached my hse liao so we 3 started revision 1st on INMM. Like this subject which is flash also need theory test? The sch really nth to do find anything they could to set a test.... Aft mel and yinru came, we study abit INMM and we gave up coz too dry. We then changed subject to DBSY....Emmm this sub we do the sample qns from OLE and we all worked together. In the middle, of coz we find something to eat from my fridgy.... perked up and we did DBSY!!
Aft that they all go Rivervale Mall's foodcourt eat dinner while I had mine at my grandmother's home which is 3 apartments away from mine =) Aft my dinner I go meet them and walk around RM... When we bak to my home, we sat down and watched TV which actually dun hav nice programmes but we chat here n dere making the show like okok....
Twister then started around 10p.m++ which yinru suggested.... So i had to take it out and play.... 1st time 5 pple play twister and my sis help spin the coloured wheel. Sometimes during the game u hav to crossover other pple or even stretched out to the impossible haha.... sounds like yoga huh... arcobatics too bah.. haha. The 2nd round where 4 pple played, dun hav me =) lol very funny as they tangled themselves up while I spinned the wheel and told them wad to do. In the end left yinru and edmund fight for twister king or twister queen... cont for another half and hour or so none of them fell on the floor so we decided to declare them the twister king and queen lor.
[hard battle sia] Aft the game, all go drink water then go in my room and use my com to chat with jiawen... then I found aeroplane chess!?? lol come come all played the game fun time kicking pple planes back. so shiok.... but then yinru's father came aft 10mins and they all decided to go home and rest. Eh so next time come play aeroplane chess again.... lets all kick edmund's plane back to base lol.
Posted by Edi.kiddo @ 1:14 AM